An anonymous man in his fifties has just revealed to the world the truth about his traumatic childhood, and his story is extremely disturbing. Hamish, who did not want to reveal his real name, has come out after 40 years of silence to tell his story of abuse.
When Hamish was just 12 years old, he says that his mentally unwell mother touched him inappropriately.
“She had this big bedroom and if we were ever sick or anything like that we’d stay in her bed. One day she just started touching me and it just went from there. She preyed on the fact that I was coming into puberty and made me feel important and special,” he explained. Hamish also said that at the time the relationship he had with his mother made him feel grown up. He explains that he thought he enjoyed it, but realized as he grew older that what he had experienced was abuse.
“It was a good household to be in when my mother was in a good mood and it was a horrible household to be in when she wasn’t … She would threaten to kill us and she’d lock all the windows and turn on the gas,” admits Hamish.
Hamish’s mother died when he was 15. He got married in the 90s, but kept his traumatic past a secret for nearly 20 years.
“It’s really hard to tell someone you love, ‘By the way, my mother abused me’,” Hamish said about why he kept silent about his past. Hamish did eventually tell his wife, but the secret took its own toll on their relationship and they soon separated. “Our marriage was never the same after I told her about my mother … just telling her wasn’t enough, we needed to get help,” Hamish said.
Hamish wishes that he had gotten help for the traumatic things he had gone through, as he is now mentally scarred.