Depression is a mental illness that some people don’t take seriously. Since the signs aren’t always clear, we never really know who may suffer from the horrible disease. Niall Parakos was a 21-year-old student that ended up taking his own life after suffering from depression but before he left, he shared a tragic message on his Facebook account.
Niall suffered from severe depression for three years but neither his friends nor family knew about his condition. He always appeared happy around them and he showed very little signs of his mental state. And according to the inquest that took place regarding Niall’s death, Niall seemed happier than he had appeared in a long time before he committed suicide by jumping off the Armstrong Bridge in Newcastle.
His family had no idea he was suffering from depression and are demanding to see a change in policy at Northumbria University after the school failed to notify his parent’s after he visited the bridge on a previous occasion. Although it appears that nobody was really aware of his mental state, Niall did leave one last message before he jumped. The psychology student posted one final status on his Facebook page as his final cry for help.
It started off with “thank yous” to the people that helped him and then led into an explanation on why he was doing what he was doing. “But anyway I think this is the largest audience I can get for this post so I just wanted to say thank you to all those that helped me during this difficult time and before those time who made my life a blessing,” he wrote online. “Please nobody blame themselves more for this and please pass on the sentiments from my notes left on my computer. I’m so sorry everyone that I couldn’t be stronger.”
The note was written the same morning he jumped. “I’m not the same and I never will be,” said his mother Rosemary. His family isn’t the only ones affected by the death. His roommates said more should’ve been done.
“We wanted to know how to get help but were always told he needs to ask for help himself – but what if you’re not in a fit state of mind? Where do you draw the line?,” said Sam, one of his roommates.
“I think he lost faith. He didn’t have faith that anything would actually help and he didn’t want people to ‘care’ because it was their job,” said another roommate Emily. The friends also said that nobody told his parents about his depression because Niall didn’t want to “burden” them. On March 20th, 2016, Niall was found under Armstrong bridge by a man walking his dog.